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Its a boring day.. but I love the ending... :) Starting of the day is very sucky... I really hate it... lesson on VB.. I know nothing.. what is needed today was taught in lesson 5, and I was absent for that day... I reached school late again... Its the first time I keep on late for school... this really show how I dread of going.. but still I finished it.. I wanted to go back to school... but I dont know I should... I know if I step there I will smile.. Jinshu didnt go to school.. and so I asked her if she wants to go back and she said yes, therefore we met up at about 6pm and went to school... The first thing that happen was Sotong.. Sw said that Sotong miss me.. is it true? hee hee *evil laugh* nevermind.. they started to tease... and then I started to fool around abit? I dont know, I just felt so happy out of a sudden... Everything (their laughters, their smile, their jokes, their faces...) just make me so happy.. make me forget about my misery this morning...
Went to mac... before that saw Mr Teo, Mr Leong and Mr Lai.. haha... saw mr teo first.. just shouted.. and saw mr leong.. haha.. seems to be missing him :x so happy when I saw him... then we go mac to eat... have talks.. have fun.. and about 8++ both the teachers went back.. and this was when the disciples and master started to have serious talk.. I think I was just so different when I was in Es and Rp.. Friends in RP asked me.. why you always seem so lethargic? Why always so tired? and when I reach ES.. Mr Lai and Mr Leong just say that I am so hyper today... its so hyper... hahaha... I also felt that.. I was so different in morning and evening... I was jumping like hell... joking around... laughing around.. in RP I am like a quiet girl... nevermind, my ending for today is nice :) I really love mac... Today... mac is filled with our tears (Tudis and shifu)... really.. not just suwei cried... even ade and js and of cause me.. We really cried... We laughed... We have fun... ;) Ade remember things that I had forgotten... Remember how we started to be so close... Maybe I really dont understand SW that much... but I am really touched when she gave me the feeling that she miss me... and she is very caring... We had a long talk... talked about how we met, how we become together.. and sad thing.. and happy things... we just pour out so many memories... so sweet memories... we had very long talks... but just too bad the time just flies so fast... its 10... and we had to go... Most importantly is that... there is something in my heart... deep inside bothering me since monday... something making me very troubled... making me very heartpain... and I am so glad that they are there to listen... Finally, the trouble is being pour out... thanks for listening.. my dearest tu-dis (SW, JS and ADE) thanks alot! Love you guys so much!!! *Sotong.. I just miss you as a friend... dont think so much.. ok? :) Though you dont know my blog.. but really.. I just miss and like you as a friend and they are just teasing you... *Jolene.. thanks for your kiss :) *SW... just let me know when you need help for maths... I will help you.. I am more than happy to help you... :) and thanks for missing me.. hee :X *JS... you also.. ok? let me know.. *Ade... jiayou...! *ALL MY TUDI... I LOVE YOU!!!  Mentally and physically not well... I am really very tired now... both mentally plus physically... Well, I just came back from training... and I was very tired since morning I suppose is because of the soccer match... I slept in class during breaks for about 2 or 3 hours but still it doesnt seem enough... Also, I am slightly sick... I got my headaches again... its been with me for about 3 days... my cough too... at times it will cough so badly... I doesnt have the time to consult the doctor also... maybe I have the time but I am lazy to do so? Also after today training... my back hurts alot now... its really alot... I cant bend... Not just my back... I hate climbing up stairs also... cause my knee will hurts when climbing stairs.. and that just sucks... I hate this kind of things... its been months since I felt pain... and now.. 1 come... another come... what the shit... -sighz- physically so weak now... I am not meng anymore...
Mentally now is really very weak... I am tired of school... sort of tired of cca... its really tired... during the holidays I dont see the problem of having headaches, I dont have the problem of fear, stress and things.. but the moment school starts... everything is different... This tuesday I just finished my VB UT... next thursday I will have my Cognitive UT... and the rest of the 4 tuesday and thursday will be having UTs... It is so tiring... real tiring... I am bored of the UT... I am very very tired of participating in class as in respond to the facilitator anymore... All I can depend is just my RJ to help me pull up my grades... plus my quiz questions... for the past 4 days.. seriously... I dont respond... and I really very slack... I just hate PBL... I am very very tired of all these... everyday doing the same thing... its so tiring...!!! Every single day I sure to have my headaches... this really sucks! Netball... I am tired.... Tony seems to have very high expectation on his good and regular player... and I am one of them... RIght now... I suppose I am his C... and I dont know if there is any sub for me... but I know everytime when doing courtwork... definately I will take that position and definately when there is subsituition... never will it be me... Yes, I love to be in court playing... I love the feeling of being played all the time and not being subsitute out... but still it is quite stressful... I must meet to his expectation... and the way he just seems to be different from mr teo... and had to change... and I am some one who adapt changes slowly... and I am a slow learner.. and he expects from me very much... I really dont know how... I really dont know... now I am really very tired to think of anything or what... really tired.. thank god tomorrow is friday already... I can finally rest... lucky sunday no tuition.. guess I can really take a good rest and think... and go and see the doctor before my cough gets worse and become asthma... Tired... tired... tired... hate school... hate school... Mr Teo... Hmm.. as I had told you.. I read your blog.... well... what I think is most people will only tend to realise their mistake, know that their wrong only when something bad really happen to them... It is just like Cindy in sec two... I doubt you have forgotten about that... CIndy was banned by Mr Chew and things so on... and from that time onwards, Cindy realise her mistake and from that time onwards she is afraid and does her work...
Right now... for they are still not that matured enough to think of the consequences and to them is that the teachers wont do that... they can handle their parents and therefore dont have to worry... (well thats me till o's.. n i always tell mdm tey that i always play com and is never netball that makes me never study) I can tell you that there are players out that definately will be upset if some teachers or parent were to ban them from going netball... just that they only do things that interest them... and at this age.. study is never an interest... students just want to pplay... never want to study... parents dont force, kids dont study... subject they hate most... just give up... it is hard to really change their mindset... and this is not really within your control... you can force them to study... but at the end, all depends on them... it is really when things happen then I suppose they will know... What I wrote here... is what I experience and think when I was their age... but 1 thing that is different is that because I knnow what had happen to Cindy, and I just LOVE to go trainings and LOVE netball... and I know the consequences.. and for them none of them experience that therefore they will onli realise when 1 of their close friends or themself got banned... and they and myself dont know that WE HAVE TO DO THINGS EVEN WE DONT LIKE... In school now... Today.. is my si qi... hahaha... got VB UT.. and.. guess what? I only know lesson 1 and 2... lesson 3 to 5 I know nothing.. and is really nothing.. lesson 5 i was absent.. lesson 4 i was sick so i slept all the way.. and lesson 3.. i dont know what i was doing.. die liao lah.. wan daN!shall blog later about my VB...
ABout what I said yesterday.. hmm.. I dont know lar... maybe later than blog... cause now busy again liao... Hopefully it dont rain... please... because I was complaining to JS that my ankle hurts alot today... it was already painful a few days ago.. but today was really very pain and it aches... and now my knee aches too.. mati sia if it rain.. than means my leg is the weather forecast liao.. den die... hopefully it dont rain..
Are we too dependent on each now??? I realise I really been too dependent on my secs friends... Not just mr teo and the rest of the graduates... but also my disciples... and they are dependent on me too? I kept thinking about the reply mr teo replied to me that day... I dont know why, I just felt that what he said was so right and enlighten me slightly and I need to really reflect and think about it... Take my disciples for instant... they didnt do their homework... and then yesterday night one of them asked me to help her find and so call do for her... and when I told her to do herself and just gave her a tip she seems to be unhappy... and which is something almost similar to what mr teo was trying to me... if we were to dependent on each other... there might be a time when we need each other and we get upset because the people is unable to help...
I really dont know... I am sort of confused? I really dont know... now I am just too tired to think about it... I will do it tomorrow... but before I end let me talked about today... Today woke up early to go to school... so bored... dread to wake up and to change and to go school... I JUST DREAD IT!.. I woke up at about 6.50 or 6.55 and got ready about 10 to 15mins time.. then I went to schoool... Took the train at about 7.22 and reached school at about 8+.. hmm so I decided not to go school so early and clashed with those sec school student... Reached the school.. so different.. 8am in hols I am at ES going to start for training... today.. in an air-con room... I sat down.. took out my laptop and went online... was hoping to see ES people... but... remembered they are in school... first time... my 4E1s group totally noone online... first time netball was offline... hoping so hard some one can just come online... I was so bored!!!! Science today... one of the reason why I hate to come to school... going to change fac. hmm.. wonder if he is good.. nevemind.. wasn't paying much attention... was just slacking.. wanting to sleep... 2nd meeting... was thinking what to eat for lunch.. cause i was super hungry at that moment... mr teo online... i was so happY!!! finally some one to talk to... but he just make me so hungry... later on have my lunch... came up and slack and sleep... then some one woke me up telling me that the science UT result is out... oh my gosh!!! I PASS!!! This pass isnt any just pass... is a B+.. is even better than my enterprise, communication... oh god.. why are my weaker subject score better than my stronger 1? *rolling eyes* my cognitive was B+ too.. and it is also one of my weaker module.. haha.. nevermind... good that I got a B+.. I can call this UT to pass my module :) *cheers* OK.. Other than that nothing much.. went back Es then later find ade they all then ya.. her mum says I grow thinner.. :) Tomorrow is my VB test... wish me luck man... I hate it... not hate the module.. just that I dont have any confident.. and thats all.. -sighz- wish me luck guys... Dread going school tomorrow also... but I love tomorrow night.. because... its netball :) hee hee.. not because of TONY of cause... is because.. I love trainings :D Tomorrow is the day... ... ...I hate... I detest... I dread... No use complaining about how boring tomorrow it will be... no use no use no use... :( TOmorrow will be science lesson... you shall see how upset, how bored, how irritated I am... I really dont want tomorrow... tomorrow is a stupid day... A damn stupid day... Kelly wont be there... Raquel is gone... No longer that close to my hugo friends... haha... tomorrow I will be a anti-social girl... you shall see... I hate this!!! ARGHHHH!!!!
I want to go back ES tomorrow... but there isnt any training.. -sighz- argh... boring day... boring... nevermind.. I shall do what I like now... going to write what I remember for how I spend my 3weeks... :) Mr Teo sure kill me :X I suppose Mr Teo is going to kill me... because I told him that whoever I support will lose... and so.. today match I told him I supported Sweden.. and...well.. Sweden lost.. hahaha... yeah!!! Holland wins!!! ;) hee hee hee so happy... :) Mr Teo is going to kill me liao... :X
Hmmm.. today is Saturday.. tomorrow or rather now is Sunday.. and well.. after today will be Monday.. the day where I detest, I dread, I dislike.. how? I don't feel like going back to school.. I don’t want to go back.. if is ES I wouldn’t mind at all.. but.. –sighz- YR YR.. no more ES liao lar :( its RP :( :'( hopefully I can adapt back fast.. but I have already anticipate that I will definitely takes a longer time than the first time I was in RP and that time it took me about 2 weeks or more.. and at that point of time I was still going back to ES and stuffs like that.. therefore I think this time round I will takes about a month or so? I don’t know -.- ;(
Seriously, right now what I don't dread going back RP is just the netball trainings on Tuesday and Thursday.. the feeling of netball is just so strong that I love trainings.. though I would rather go back ES trainings than RP.. but still netball trainings are always the only things that I love going back to school.. (I love going back RP training not what you(mr teo) are thinking ah) Really.. I just hate it now!!! I DON’T WANT GO BACK RP! If I were in TP how nice.. I can go back ES faster, easier and more.. in RP.. I can hardly go back.. even if I'm back.. its like the school going to close lor.. stupid school so early close.. arghhh!!!! Just came back from watching the Thai vs Sing match.. and have dinner with JS, Ade and Mr Teo.. he talked about stuffs to them.. Mr Teo shifu.. don’t be too stress up over the things.. I believe they will do a good job and lessen your burden by a bit.. trust my tu dis.. and remember your blog.. "They must realised that no matter what happened in the future, we will still be there for each other..." .. "But always remember...you are not alone...if you need to take a break to recharge, we will always be there for each other...right?" Panda, kelly and me will be there for you when you need any help.. just let us know.. how busy, how difficult we will always help you because you are our daddy.. :X hee hee hee Settled about friendly between RP, ES and HSC... hmm... though I want the match... but I just feel stress about playing with ES... I dont know why but really... there is this stress and fear in me... :( dont know why also... haiz.. 17th of July.. haiz... Die... my old habit is coming back... keep on scolding vulgar when I got angry.. haiz.. its time to control myself once again... going to slap myself if I scold... just now scolded F word infront of him.. stupid me.. -sighz- I think I need to go to woodlands liao... my back, ankle and knee is giving me problem... my back now aches and hurt at times... my ankle hurts since yesterday... also dont know why... after the training yesterday I just feel the pain... and for my knee at times when I jump or sprint it hurts... arghh!!!! why is all my old injuries coming back to haunt me!!! WHY!!!?? Just when many friendlies and IVP is coming and all these problems are coming back to haunt me... please please... please go away... dont haunt me... dont let me feel the fear... please!!!! |
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++InTrOdUcTiOn++ ::xIaOyUn:: ::Born on 18/08/87:: ::Unqiue Leo:: ::Yu Neng, EastSpring, Republic Poly:: ::Netball, Badminton, Track&Field, Librarian, Table-tennis, Choir:: ::To be PE teacher, camp instructor... ::Sporty:: ::Outgoing:: ::Friendly?:: ::Fun-to-be-with:: ::Low self-esteem:: ::Low self-confidence:: ::Between Optismist and Pessismist ::Sensitive:: ::Emotional:: ::Quite bad-tempered:: ::Short:: ++LOVES++ ::Play Sports:: ::Surf the net and Chat:: ::Laze arnd, Sleep, Slack:: ::Green, Blue, Yellow:: ::To be: Pe Teacher, Camp instructor:: ::East Spring Netball team:: ::My friends, hubby, disciples and shifu(mr teo):: ++WiShLiSt++ .~.Jacket (preferably nike).~. .~. .~.Storybook so to improve my english :) .~.Save money for all my buyable items.~. .~.A sports bag.~. .~.Nike Shorts.~. .~. .~.Mp3player.~. .~.Man Utd Jersey.~. .~.Bball shorts (black).~. .~. .~.Spending my birthday with ES peepx.~. .~.RP improved in IVP.~. .~.I play as a good Center.~. .~.Able to control the game.~. .~.Join RP bball.~. .~.Commited in wushu, netball and bball.~. .~.DO well in my studies.~. .~.Move on to my future.~. .~.Dont stay in my past.~. .~.Get a B for my Eng O's this year.~. .~.ES netball team will perform.~. .~.People who I care live happily.~. .~.Learn as many sports as possible.~. .~.Study in Uni.~. .~.Weight become 45kg.~. .~.More confident in myself.~. ++People I wont forget++ .+.Buddy - Jesline aka Panda.+. .+.Buddy - Sihua aka Da ge.+. .+.Buddy - Hui Ching aka Ah Neox.+. .+.Buddy - Rosling aka Brother Xiaowong.+. .+.Buddy - Kelly aka Auntie.+. .+.Buddy - Cindy aka Blur Queen.+. +.+Tudi - Huiwen aka lamer no.1+.+ +.+Tudi - Adeline aka lamer 2+.+ +.+Tudi - Jinshu aka Idiot+.+ +.+Tudi - Siriporn aka ah bui+.+ +.+Tudi - Suwei+.+ =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Cheryl aka Sotong no. 1=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Hui Ying aka Sotong no.2=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Perrine aka Sotong no.3=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Jane aka Sotong no. 4=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Jolene aka Sotong no.5=.= (",)Mummy (Ms Lye) (",)Shifu aka Daddy (Mr Teo) (",)Shifu aka Dua Hai(Mr Lai) (",)Hubby (Mr Leong) (",)Ben Hai (Mr Tay) 
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