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Ok.. a new life is waiting for me... republic poly... business computing... looking at the websit this morning... i guess i will start school on nthe 3rd of may.. well.. i guess is better lah.. thinking of it.. just 1 month and one or 2 weeks more to go.. hmm.. actually starting early is good also.. cause well.. just a few more weeks to starting school guess i dont have to go find work also... so well.. is good to start school early.. hmm.. so now.. how am i going to spend my time wisely now? well.. i have decided.. from now till 3rd of may.. i will still go back netball and also.. do voluntary work bah... :) i doesnt wish to waste my time anymore... hmmm so.. have fun and then do some things that will make a difference in others' lives... :)
so right now.. i think i shall just go back to school for netball trainings and hopefully the voluntary work is on those days where there wasnt netball training.. then i can be occupied :) hee hee... ok.. today.. woke up see the posting and i went to school with cindy.. then she talked to mr teo.. and me talked to mr lai.. later when out to eat.. and went back home to sleep.. was quite tired.. then online now.. hee hee... oh yea.. here i come.. MP3PLAYER n WATCH!!!! this two things will be what i want before 3rd of may... :) hmm... english.. should i retake you again? hahaha.. what a joke.. ok lah.. not sure yet.. hmm.. but maybe i should bah? just try again like my chinese? *ponder*  Hooray!!! I am so happy now.. well.. purposly wake up at 10am to check my posting.. and.. guess what? I got into my 2nd choice... Business Computing.. I was praying not to get my first choice.. haha.. and I got my 2nd... hee hee.. so happy!!! Was quite sleepy when I was surfing the net.. but.. when I see the school.. I JUMP FOR JOY!!! haha... soo cool.. hee.. going to be with kelly another 3 years.. hahaha... really is K2 friend.. LOlz... hee.. hmm... happy happy happy!!!
Ok.. happy is happy.. now.. the serious thing comes in... I must work harder now... jiayou wor~ yunru!!! haha.. i am awake now.. why? cause of mr teo's sms... this time wasnt because he disturb me or what... it was because of "I have been thinking about what we said yesterday night. If you want to tell your mum that you love her, please do it while you remember... A lot of adults no longer remember how to do that and if you wait some more, you will lose it too and behave like your mum...and one of these day, your child will not know how to tell you that they love you too... Dont lose it while you still remember it..." i could not sleep again cause i was thinking about what he says... and also about yesterday conversation again...
I do wish to tell my mum i love her... hmm maybe i should say it... another reason of why i am awake now was because... yesterday he "attack" me about my sleeping time.. and i do not know why lah.. right now.. i just feel guilty about it.. maybe i should really get up early man... well.. if i want to wake up early.. i can.. but i must have something to do.. well.. maybe i should just go do the vol. work or find a job... so that i will do some meaningful thing... or rather spend my time wisely... not like now.. i have been wasting 4months doing nothing... playing a stupid game... wasted my 4 months... what is over is over... maybe i should really start doing something to "bu chang" and to make myself feel much better... after yesterday conversation.. it makes me feel that i am an useless bum.. some one who dont deserve to have such a good life... cause i do nothing yet i deserve so much things... well.. hopefully i can a make a decision quickly... to work or to do voluntary work... We must always live today as meaningful as possible... live like you are living forever... but do the things do your best everyday as if there is no tomorrow... well... i am not living this way.. i had wasted my time and years.. well... i hope i learn it... Well.. have lunch just now... was eating together with my mum... i have the urge to say "i love you" but i didnt.. i was keep thinking about everything.. about the sms he send to us... but i just dont know how to say it... anyway... all these reflection.. i hope i am able to keep it in mind.. and remind myself... and learn it... and live it a better life... a more meaningful life... reason for me not working is always because i want to have the time to go back netball.. and so i doesnt want to work.. well.. if i am able to find a job that fits my criteria i will work.. if not.. i hope vol. work the time is flexible.. so i can go back also.. i really dont feel like wasting time liao lah... but then.. at the same time... i really wish that i am able to go back to train... well.. i dont wish to live with regrets... i shall just go back and train till i study.. i think is better this way.. what if i die before i could study.. wont i feel more regret for not going back netball? so... just continue... and also find other things to do... suppose to be sleeping.. but i am not.. haha... supposed to be tired.. but.. i am not.. sighz.. haha.. its 3.30 now.. better try to get some rest la... sian
Briefly what i done today... woke up at about 12++ and have my lunch at 1.. then 2++ left my house and reached school at 3pm... ran around level 2 5 rounds.. then.. do a drill.. then later cannon pass then sucide run... after that.. my food feel like coming out.. and i went to the toilet.. later.. still feel like vomitting.. haiz.. 2 hours still like that.. irritating.. maybe should not eat at all.. then do drills lohz... then owe 1 sucide run.. i do it myself when they are walking round the court.. come in by 1.37 or 1.34 lah.. still not good... 400m less than 1.4 360m also like that.. sianz half... but overall... i am feeling quite ok for the training lah.. other than the vomit part.. and also joined all except the cannon pass and sucide run thing lah.. once again.. haiz.. so si bai yunru!....
Have dinner with some of them and mr teo... fish n co.. then.. talked alot of meaningful things... also some :( things.. he mentioned about what graduated... then there comes my tears.. haha.. so automatically lohz.... my tears just gather together.. haha... also.. talked about life... and those less fortunate people... -sighz- hmm.. actually i dont really mind going to do the voluntary thingy... but i dont know if my mum mind... that is why i dont want to give you an answer... but now also.. i dont even xiang yao ask her la.. talked alot of things lah... and so alot of things in my mind too... how you know if you are living right? how you know if you have done the right thing? how you know if you create a good impact? so many how you know... ... ... ... whatever it is.. i also dont know.. haha.. should i stop going back netball? should i? its so hard so difficult to let it go... its so painful to know that you are no longer in there... the pain is so unbearable... worse than my my phyiscal pain (muscle aching n knee)... those are the pain i cant endure at all... put in so much commitment... effort.. and there it goes.... should i just stop going back and then slowly slowly let it go? but will i be able to do that? i am sure my mind will think of the training when it was training day... sian man... to stop or not to stop? WO BU JI DAO!!! monday is the next training... go or dont go??? now i just started... now i just started to train up... and i dont wish to stop... but.. saturday i will know my JAE result... and soon... i need to go and study again.. and i might not have the time to go back ES... *cry*... if i dont try to let it go now.. hwo am i able to survive when i study again? i am so afraid i am goin to be distracted man... but even if i really stop going back now.. will i be able to let go too? and if i dont.. then wont i regret for not going back? wei.. so what i should do now? go or not? sianz sianz sianz.. oh.. didnt blog yesterday.. cause as usual lah.. wake up morning cause being disturbed.. then later wake up play com, eat lunch, play com, eat dinner, and then sleep.. ahhaa... today one nicer... :)
wake up go mac eat breakfast.. woah.. didnt finished wor... so full... go pe room.. so weird.. room changed.. hmm... talk rubbish.... sleep there... 1+++ went up..... so sleepy... see them shot and things... 3pm training start.. was thinking want to train or nto.. adeline pull me.. so i trained... later... grab in.. eh.. not like in the past.. lolz... nevermind la.. it takes time!!! but still quite ok... oh ya.. 10 rounds? or 15 rounds.. i finished it.. no D.I.B.. haha... :) overall training.. quite happy but sad about certain thing also... today maybe i should be special abit... i write what i am happy about and then sad... should not write in the sequence of things i do.. H A P P Y = HAPPY! :D I am feeling this way.. why? hmm... I joined them 3 rounds of cannon passes... hmm... well.. i am really not that bad.. as in i am able to catch the passes and throw a catchable pass haha.. most of the time :) do 2 times sucide run.. and... i managed to run within the time limit.. 1.40min... well done yunru... i am really focused... anyway.. i got the support from them too... :) thanks... (adeline, suwei, perrine .... ) also... i participate most of the activities... can say.. almost all.. i endure it... but.. sad to say ... ... Sad.. well.. because i didnt join them for the 2nd and 3rd round of cannon passes... i am still thinking.. why on earth didnt i join them just because mr teo says you can rest.. not really rest... but ... rather... erm... "yunru, if you can take it then you join them.. if not... dont.." and cause off these.. i didnt join them... why i was panting really hard because i run the sucide run.. and i dash for the last round.. cause i am last and i dont want to drag them down... but is like... erm.. i was panting.. very tired... and cause of his word i listen and i sat down... hmm.. where are all my " DONT GIVE UP!... WILLPOWER AND DETERMINATION!!!???" hmm.. really siaz... where are all these...??? why did i stop? just because i tired and you stop.. arent you being fair to them? you joined them.. yet you stop? yes.. you are not in the team anymore... but when you train with them.. you are.. and you stop cause you are tired? what the fuck... argh!!! now.. i really dont dare to promise myself to join them all the way tomorrow... cause i am afraid again.... hmm... see how.. but then.. i must really try not to give up... its bad for yourself.. really... yunru.. you arent out of oxygen today... you are just tired.. so you shouldnt be stoping.. but maybe was because mr teo told me that.. and then i think that i am also not up to it.. so i stop.. guess this was the reason... shall see how tomorrow again... still i am happy.. cause i am still not that bad for ball handling.. is my speed, stamina... DETERMINATION TO CONTINUE.. PESEVERANCE... WILLPOWER....slowly... i can do it.. :D i must do it by their camp.. i want join their camp.. so i must be able to do it.. jiayou yunru!!! all the way!!! hmm.. knee hurts now.. guess run too much.. hope tomorrow ok.. then go down tomorrow... hope i really dare to go down tomorrow... anyway.. yunru.. stop scolding vulgar.. you are now starting to scold again.. STOP STOP STOP!!! STOP!!!! ALL YOUR F WORD... AND OTEHR VULGAR words...!!!! so sianz so sianz.. nthng to do.. sianz.. haha.. sian till wan fall asleep liao.. boring... boring.. boring.. but got baby at my house. noisy noisy noisy... buay tahan!!!
ok.. for today.. hmm.. nothing much yet.. hmm.. but i am happy yesterday.. now i am really feeling very relax talking to "u" :) hee hee.. and we talked alot.. :) ok.. oh ya.. once again.. this morning.. a man who is so crazy sms dont know how many times the similar sms to wake me up! who cares..haha.. :p .. he seems to be enjoying there man.. so pek chek! :p nevermind.. nothing to blog le.. tonight then say what i done from now till later..
Yesterday i didnt blog is because my sis is doing her project... and well.. as a good sister of hers i let her use the com.. hahaha... so nice of me.. lolz... :x so now i should just blog about yesterday...
Hmm.. woke up at about 11 and then got ready to go Ms selena's wedding... meet kel and sihua.. what the .... they wore skirt... the moment i saw it.. i was thinking ok.. i should not go.. haha.. but.. i told myself.. who cares about them.. so just forget about it.. later on.. was hoping mdm suzana wont be going at the same time... then i was wrong.. kelly called her... -.-! and.. she is about to go.. and we are on our way too.. gosh... nevermind.. panda also wore skirt.. hmm.. ms lye and me wore pants.. haha :) but i was the only one who wear sports shoe.. but who cares... reached there... mdm suzana called me.. and she was saying.. you are supposed not to wear anything.. and use banana leaf to cover yourself.. :( later on either kelly or panda went over and asked her is she happy with their dressing.. haiz.. who cares about it man... nevermind.. eat nasi briani.. (what mr teo said) when i saw it.. i was thinking.. haha.. stupid guy... oh ya.. ms philip so call feed us.. so weird.. but like that lohz.. then later.. eh.. go up to see ms selena.. she looks gorgeous.. and she was very nervous.. first time seeing her like this.. hahaha.. ok.. then like that lah.. then went off.. go suntec. then eat NYDC.. then.. eh.. later ms lye n mr lai went off.. and then panda.. and... later kel, sh and me went bugis.. to have dinner.. then went home.. watch tv.. play com.. and then sleep.. and then wake up play com.. and then sleep.. and woke up at 2.. haha.. and here i am blogging... |
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++InTrOdUcTiOn++ ::xIaOyUn:: ::Born on 18/08/87:: ::Unqiue Leo:: ::Yu Neng, EastSpring, Republic Poly:: ::Netball, Badminton, Track&Field, Librarian, Table-tennis, Choir:: ::To be PE teacher, camp instructor... ::Sporty:: ::Outgoing:: ::Friendly?:: ::Fun-to-be-with:: ::Low self-esteem:: ::Low self-confidence:: ::Between Optismist and Pessismist ::Sensitive:: ::Emotional:: ::Quite bad-tempered:: ::Short:: ++LOVES++ ::Play Sports:: ::Surf the net and Chat:: ::Laze arnd, Sleep, Slack:: ::Green, Blue, Yellow:: ::To be: Pe Teacher, Camp instructor:: ::East Spring Netball team:: ::My friends, hubby, disciples and shifu(mr teo):: ++WiShLiSt++ .~.Jacket (preferably nike).~. .~. .~.Storybook so to improve my english :) .~.Save money for all my buyable items.~. .~.A sports bag.~. .~.Nike Shorts.~. .~. .~.Mp3player.~. .~.Man Utd Jersey.~. .~.Bball shorts (black).~. .~. .~.Spending my birthday with ES peepx.~. .~.RP improved in IVP.~. .~.I play as a good Center.~. .~.Able to control the game.~. .~.Join RP bball.~. .~.Commited in wushu, netball and bball.~. .~.DO well in my studies.~. .~.Move on to my future.~. .~.Dont stay in my past.~. .~.Get a B for my Eng O's this year.~. .~.ES netball team will perform.~. .~.People who I care live happily.~. .~.Learn as many sports as possible.~. .~.Study in Uni.~. .~.Weight become 45kg.~. .~.More confident in myself.~. ++People I wont forget++ .+.Buddy - Jesline aka Panda.+. .+.Buddy - Sihua aka Da ge.+. .+.Buddy - Hui Ching aka Ah Neox.+. .+.Buddy - Rosling aka Brother Xiaowong.+. .+.Buddy - Kelly aka Auntie.+. .+.Buddy - Cindy aka Blur Queen.+. +.+Tudi - Huiwen aka lamer no.1+.+ +.+Tudi - Adeline aka lamer 2+.+ +.+Tudi - Jinshu aka Idiot+.+ +.+Tudi - Siriporn aka ah bui+.+ +.+Tudi - Suwei+.+ =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Cheryl aka Sotong no. 1=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Hui Ying aka Sotong no.2=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Perrine aka Sotong no.3=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Jane aka Sotong no. 4=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Jolene aka Sotong no.5=.= (",)Mummy (Ms Lye) (",)Shifu aka Daddy (Mr Teo) (",)Shifu aka Dua Hai(Mr Lai) (",)Hubby (Mr Leong) (",)Ben Hai (Mr Tay) 
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