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Alright... its been days since I have blog... well.. let my count.. it is like 4days? Woah.. hahaha... ok.. some will know that I just came back from my camp... as in my Republic Camp... 1 thing I can say is... I did not regret to join the camp.. :) I am very happy that I went for the camp... It was fun... tiring though.. but also unforgettable.. though it isnt like OBS.. but the memory is almost unforgettable....
Yesterday I was dismissed from the camp... but I didnt blog because.. I slept at 8pm! I was just too tired.... I reached home about 7+++ after my dinner with Jinshu and then I checked my mails and then I went to bathe... then I just felt too tired to pack and to stay online... and therefore... I went to sleep.. wanted to wake up at 11pm.. but... I was too sleepy to do so... I reached home so late cause of Jinshu.. told her will be back to school.. so no choice.. and told her things about Carl.. and then soem of my RP activities.. and then we have dinner at Mac... The difference between this camp and other camp I went for are quite a number... 1stly... this camp... i totally dont know ANYONE of them... and it was time for me to socialize with them... and well... I did... the 1st day of the camp.. or rather the first few hours... I was quiet... feeling lonely... but one of the counsellors just approach me and we chat... then later... were separated in to two groups... then I was really feeling very awkward.... then later a guy approach... then soon... I myself slowly went to talk to and interact with them... soon... I know all the members in my group.. and we chat quite well... when we merge with the other team of my group.. I wasnt feeling that worried and lonely anymore... and soon... I started to interact with some of them too.. :) What I am proud is that... I did some of the interaction myself and stuffs... 2ndly... the different is that this camp... the members in my house... none of them or rather only 1 or 2 member is not active... a person like me... can be actually counted as the last few active member... everyone is very sporty... take many initiative... very dependent... and active... and a person like me who doesnt likes to lose out... or rather friendly or what... I have to be like them... and one thing I learn from this camp is... I must really be dependent... is like... everyone of them is really very dependent... and I am like a small kid... I must really slowly and learn... This camp really STOP me from speaking CHINESE... everyone talks in English... I really have a little of difficulty to communicate with them... it is really EVERYONE speaks english... and most of the girls are really fluent in their english.. and they have a certain accent! I was realy feeling very down... and very demoralised... everyone seems to be so fluent and good in English.. and ME? fail ENGLish.. I was really so afraid to really talk... and certain words the speak.. I do not understand and stuffs like this... the moment when I speak Chinese.. do you know how I felt? I was feeling... oh gosh.. I speak the wrong language... I was so :( and demoralised.... actually till now... 1 thing I am afraid of going to school is cause of this... because... my english is so damn poor... and.... they are so good... it is really damn DEMORALISING!!!!!!! Other than the English thing.. I really make alot of friends... in amazing race.. though it was damn tiring... but it gives me the opportunity to know zhong ming and kenny better... both of them are cool guys... and it was because of this.. that I really know zhongming and kenny... we have great talks... :) I great friend I really made with is... sarah-ann... both of us are really great friends... we really crap alot... and have fun.. and she is really very nice girl... :) This camp really give me a type of impression of how I should be... and also... I had lots of fun in it... and allow me to make alot of friends... and learn certain things... :) This week is abit tight for me.... but it is ending soon.... tomorrow or rather this afternoon... I am going to school to play bball I guess... then on friday I will have my orientation.. and so I am going back to RP... then... I also need to make my ezlink card... then... on saturday.. there is one outing for the CAMP^2 people... and sunday is a rest for me.... and MOnday.. I am starting school... though after the camp I know alot of friends and stuffs.... I am really getting to feel worried now... and scared... and anxious.. I am really worried I am going to slack... my english... my eveyything... I am so scared! soooo damn afraid... -sighz-  |
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++InTrOdUcTiOn++ ::xIaOyUn:: ::Born on 18/08/87:: ::Unqiue Leo:: ::Yu Neng, EastSpring, Republic Poly:: ::Netball, Badminton, Track&Field, Librarian, Table-tennis, Choir:: ::To be PE teacher, camp instructor... ::Sporty:: ::Outgoing:: ::Friendly?:: ::Fun-to-be-with:: ::Low self-esteem:: ::Low self-confidence:: ::Between Optismist and Pessismist ::Sensitive:: ::Emotional:: ::Quite bad-tempered:: ::Short:: ++LOVES++ ::Play Sports:: ::Surf the net and Chat:: ::Laze arnd, Sleep, Slack:: ::Green, Blue, Yellow:: ::To be: Pe Teacher, Camp instructor:: ::East Spring Netball team:: ::My friends, hubby, disciples and shifu(mr teo):: ++WiShLiSt++ .~.Jacket (preferably nike).~. .~. .~.Storybook so to improve my english :) .~.Save money for all my buyable items.~. .~.A sports bag.~. .~.Nike Shorts.~. .~. .~.Mp3player.~. .~.Man Utd Jersey.~. .~.Bball shorts (black).~. .~. .~.Spending my birthday with ES peepx.~. .~.RP improved in IVP.~. .~.I play as a good Center.~. .~.Able to control the game.~. .~.Join RP bball.~. .~.Commited in wushu, netball and bball.~. .~.DO well in my studies.~. .~.Move on to my future.~. .~.Dont stay in my past.~. .~.Get a B for my Eng O's this year.~. .~.ES netball team will perform.~. .~.People who I care live happily.~. .~.Learn as many sports as possible.~. .~.Study in Uni.~. .~.Weight become 45kg.~. .~.More confident in myself.~. ++People I wont forget++ .+.Buddy - Jesline aka Panda.+. .+.Buddy - Sihua aka Da ge.+. .+.Buddy - Hui Ching aka Ah Neox.+. .+.Buddy - Rosling aka Brother Xiaowong.+. .+.Buddy - Kelly aka Auntie.+. .+.Buddy - Cindy aka Blur Queen.+. +.+Tudi - Huiwen aka lamer no.1+.+ +.+Tudi - Adeline aka lamer 2+.+ +.+Tudi - Jinshu aka Idiot+.+ +.+Tudi - Siriporn aka ah bui+.+ +.+Tudi - Suwei+.+ =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Cheryl aka Sotong no. 1=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Hui Ying aka Sotong no.2=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Perrine aka Sotong no.3=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Jane aka Sotong no. 4=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Jolene aka Sotong no.5=.= (",)Mummy (Ms Lye) (",)Shifu aka Daddy (Mr Teo) (",)Shifu aka Dua Hai(Mr Lai) (",)Hubby (Mr Leong) (",)Ben Hai (Mr Tay) 
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