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:) smiling face... hee hee haha... 7.30am.. my phone rang... once again... dont feel like going again... but... remember my nick... my promise... i force myself up and wash up... soon i rush down to school... i thought i am going to be late... as i was walking... i sms adeline... then i reached school... perrine was not there yet.. haha.. was so happy.. :X.. mr teo says he was dreaming that i can get up or something like that... huiying, cheryl they all also.. hee hee.. hmm... ok fine... then round 5rounds around the school.. and we do warm up.. and did some drills... WOAH... TIRED is the word i can say... but... I HAVE FOLLOW THROUGH THE TRAINING... but anyway.. the training werent so tired... but i think this is the type of training i used to have.. and so i cant get used to the real tough 1, he is giving to them now.. but nevermind... :) i finish it... :) i endure the pain and... tiredness... :) *winks ;)* hee hee...
argh... i laughed at people injury again.. though i am having pain in my knee too.. i leaughed at siriporn.. i said.. like this also can fall.. and i laugh.. haha... and later.. me and huiying together do drills.. i TWIST MY ANKLE!!! argh!!! :( again... laugh at people... i got it myself again... -sighz- now it is painful... but then it is not swollen.. so heck care? i think see how.. let time says loh... ok... were at PE room... on tuesday plan to go woodlands today.. and then later she went to play bball.. then after that i went to bathe.. then she went play bball.. then later.. mr teo wants go home.. then i think on the way then.. so i went.. hmm... i keep thinking my knee is nothing wrong.. cause the pain was on and off.. on and off... though getting more frequent but i always think it was nothing wrong.. but.. haha... i am now bandaging it.. :s my mum dont know once again.. haha.. :X wearing a 3/4 pants to cover... haha.. :X ok.. then went tm eat.. then here i am.. :)  Netball... Netball... Netball... -sighz!- yes.. once again... i am feeling down again.. haha.. 1stly guess I am going to get my period.. and so.. i am having mood swings... :D.. hahaha... should be bah... .lolz... but i still know i m currently feeling down... -sighz-
starting.. was becasue of wednesday... i run halfway.. i ran away again... once again... i lost all my determination... i am giving up so easily! SO EASILY!... this is not the yunru i used to know... the yunru i uesed to know... no matter how tough the training was... no matter how tired she was... no matter how much pain she had... she can just ENDURE ALL!... E-N-D-U-R-E... but now... she is never enduring... she is GIVING UP!...she cant ENDURE anymore!!! why is it so? i really dont know.. only she can answer herself... but she is not answering... she is escaping day by day... -sighz- Yunru... you are becoming very very very WEAK! you are like a weakling now... an useless person... you said, you claim you love sports.. but you cant endure such a trainiing? Arent you useless? Arent you weak? Arent you lousy!? Please YUNRU... WAKE UP!!!! its time to wake up le... stop slacking!!! STOP!!!!!!!! CRY ALSO NO USE... BUT YOU ARENT DOING!!!!! come on.. yunru, you can do it... you are just 16 years old.. 16!!! mr teo is like 32? HALF OF YOUR AGE!!! and is still fit and healthy.. or rather he is better then you... you are 16... you are lousier.. you should be able to train up and be better then him... really.. Yunru... you must get back your determination!... you must not give up anymore!... today the bicycle... well.. it was really tiring... yes.. you really wanted to give up in the middle... but... -sighz- i dont know what to say lah... -sighz- COME ON!!!! just like this song... "dont lose your way with each passing day... you' ve come this far... dont throw it away..." you been training hard since the past 4 years or 3 years... you have come this far... i cant just let it go... and so you must move on... really move on.. push harder now... really push... dont give up anymore... Yunru, you have gave up 3 or 4 trainings.... this is not WONG YUNRU... so... please buck it up! "Bie qing yan fang qi... fou zhe dui bu qi zi ji!" yunru... remmeber this.. dont give up so easily.. if not you are disappointing yourself! come on! jiayou!!!!! * i know i keep telling myself in the past i cant.. but day by day is still the same.. or rather is getting worse.. i really dont know also.. i am losing all my determination.. giving up easily.. i really dont know... give it a try tomorrow... -sighz- * Ok.. its been so long I blog.. haha.. actually just 2 days... haha.. and to me is long? ok.. i shall really blog... hmm... i guess most of you had realize there is a change in my blogskin now... if no... please hit F5 to refresh it.. then you will see it... Well.. i hope it is nice and better than the previous one, please give me some comments ok? well.. I had actually spend 5 days to do up this blogskin... haha.. its long right? well... i keep doing and i felt quite fed up with the html code and stuffs... but well.. i finally did it... :) *cheers!!!*
Yes.. i am having full of thoughts these days... well... some is about netball, perrine and other things too... hmm... i cleared some thoughts... but.... there are still some in me.. and of cause today things... i cried or rather i teared a little just now....(details later).... anyway... hopefully what i been talking to perrine gets into her head and it helps her a little... Latest news... yes.. I am going to give tuition on tuesday.. haha.. yes.. surprised? LoLz.. haha.. just earn some money... hopefully can help her a little... :) A little bit of anxious actually.. hahaha... Once again.. thursday I didnt go down woodlands.. haha.. :X abit lazy again.. haha.. i think.. THINK again.. i am going to woodlands.... hahaha.... hmm... is it bcoz im no longer in the team therefore i am giving up so easily??? when i was sitting down outside... i thought about this too... was thinking why am i giving up so easily... dots...... so why? because of that? or... i lost all my determination... and my perseverance? -sighz- i really dont know... i must really think... but is that.. i am really having alot of things to think now... is really alot!!! reason for me not blogging yesterday was because of that.... and also was doing my blogskin... hmm.. monday also.. hiaz.. this week i think is a bad week for me bah??? -sighz-... i dont know lah... i really wish that i dont want to think.... i really wish i can live a life where i have no troubles... no nothing.... i living in a simple life... in a nice life... haha... "wishful thinking!" wake up yunru!!! life is not good 1.... so stop all these wishful thinking!!!!
i am tired to blog and think liao la... forget it lah... when one day.. when i am energetic and alone at home... then i now i am also quite tired... *yawNZ* sooooooooooooooooooo tireeddddddddddd................. tomorrow.. nothing to do... but then.... maybe should really go down woodlands.... cause... tuesday suppose to go down... but.. in the end never go... today.. intend to go b4 trg... also never go.. maybe tml i should bah... ??? haiz... i am no longer that strong anymore.... both my mental and physical... -sighz- today training was like... -sighz-... once again... i gave up in the middle... its the 2nd time.... why!? no more excuse for me to gave up this time... really no... other than the little pain, little tiredness... haiz.. all are EXCUSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EXCUSE EXCUSE EXCUSE.... yunru... you are forever giving excuses.... USELESS!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!! nothing i can say man.... haiz........!!!!!!!! why why why???? why am i like this???? why ?? no more determination.. no more everything... haiz... sux sux sux... haiz.. haiz..haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. haiz... stop sighinG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stupid stupid stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lousy!!!!!!!! giving up so easily... then how to move on in the future?????? how how how????? argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sux sux sux.......
Yawnz.... i am tooooooo tired to blog now.... physically and mentally.... was awake at 11am..... and went to RP and then sim lim square and the orchard..... that is why i am physically tired... well.... many things happen today also..... and there is toooo much things for me to think... and so i am mentally tired... haha... maybe blog later(noon) bah.... gd nitex....
oK... yEt To BlOg... HmMm... WhAt CaN i BlOg??? better stop my wording things again.. haha... hmm.. I want to change my blogskins le... quite sian with my old blogskin... hmm... really quite bored man.. when there is no netball or whatever... today.. hmm... sms with adel.. and then i was online chatting away... hmm... oh ya... i am happy that i am really shooing away for gunbound game.. hee hee.. :D
just bathe come out also.. lolz.. hee.. so late sia... haha... ok.. hmm... hmm.. hmm... what i should blog.. today... just wake up, online, sms, eat.... ok lah.. nothing much also.. so shant blog about it... tomorrow is monday.. hmm... should be going to training? hmm.. nevermind... just go bah? cause... i wont get anymore free time once i start school? which is like about 33 more days? which is about 4 weeks? woah... thats pretty fast... hmm.. so.. i shant waste my chance of going back to school then... :) ok... decision made.. :) should i accept the tuition thing???? hmmm.. i should just take a look at the topics and also... ask ms lye if she still have those books then i shall give my mum the answer tomorrow... :) the deal is quite ok lah.. cause is like i expect 4 times, 2hrs $80? and my mum said 4 times, 2 hrs $100? nevermind.. see the topics and then decide again.... i guess most of the RP things.. is almost done already... just waiting to be sent... and hmm.. excited over it? guess so... but then.. will miss es netball lohz.. sighz... so sad so sad... really so sad... go RP = less go back eastspring.. sighz... sobs sobs.... miss netball man!!! really lohz.. sighz... haiz... hopefully can go down netball camp.. and hope i still have the time to back trainings... :( anyway... 3rd of may.. is my start of my school... also.. it will be the day.. i must accept changes.... i must be ready for school by then... ready for any changes or anything... i must be positive and be make sure i am not being influence so easily... and so many ands... haha... getting a laptop....but 2nd hand? i not really sure lohz.. haiz... hope can get a new one lah.. but then cousin say is too ex.. haiz.. ok la.... but if 2nd hand is really gd condition and things like tt.. ok lohz... qian jiu yi dian lohz... :( * so guai* hahaha... ok... a watch is waiting for me also... my MP3PLAYER also.. hahaha.... but maybe i will get the laptop first... cause is the most important thing now... yeah... ok.. dont know what to blog liao la... quite bored now... hmm.. 11pm Man U match agst arsenal... hmm.. no scv.. but go IRC see lohz.. haha... gd bye MOndAy... WednEsDAY... SATurDAy.. training should I go down??? Wed.. i definately will go down lahz... cause is all the gers going down.. hmm... then.. how about monday and saturday? i really not sure... hmm... i want.. but what will be doing... he is taking over sec1 already... and so.. if i go down.. hmm.. whata can i do??? hmm... dont know... but i think since i nothing to do... then i just go down and see lohz.. haha... hee hee... see how bah... saturday.. hmm hmm... hmm... they going ot play game.. well.. yesterday i just got tooooooooo emotional le.... haiz.. cant believe it.. i could actually cried so much and could nto fell asleep.. haiyo.. lousy sia.. haiz... but well... its like that la.. i gues? hmm.. ok.. nevermind.. hmm... just go down and watch lohz... if is like can play good lohz... a bonus lohz... if no.. then haiz... too bad... if i want to go on saturday.. i think i better not expect too much.. as in expect i am going to play lohz...ya lohz... haiz.. haiz.. haiz.. hope i can psycho myself bah... haiz.... but still i really i can play lah... who doesnt want to play game man!.. haiz.. its been so damn bloody long since i play le lohz... soooo much longer then the current sec4 batch.. haiz... sec4 batch is always sooo lucky.. they got everything.. haiz... so envy them man... sec 1 to 4 got to train so much.. haiz.. sec 1 to 4 got camp... sec2 to 4 zonal... wah lau... dont want say le lah.... so :( one lohz.. haiz... envy is the word i can say.. thats all...soo oenvy them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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++InTrOdUcTiOn++ ::xIaOyUn:: ::Born on 18/08/87:: ::Unqiue Leo:: ::Yu Neng, EastSpring, Republic Poly:: ::Netball, Badminton, Track&Field, Librarian, Table-tennis, Choir:: ::To be PE teacher, camp instructor... ::Sporty:: ::Outgoing:: ::Friendly?:: ::Fun-to-be-with:: ::Low self-esteem:: ::Low self-confidence:: ::Between Optismist and Pessismist ::Sensitive:: ::Emotional:: ::Quite bad-tempered:: ::Short:: ++LOVES++ ::Play Sports:: ::Surf the net and Chat:: ::Laze arnd, Sleep, Slack:: ::Green, Blue, Yellow:: ::To be: Pe Teacher, Camp instructor:: ::East Spring Netball team:: ::My friends, hubby, disciples and shifu(mr teo):: ++WiShLiSt++ .~.Jacket (preferably nike).~. .~. .~.Storybook so to improve my english :) .~.Save money for all my buyable items.~. .~.A sports bag.~. .~.Nike Shorts.~. .~. .~.Mp3player.~. .~.Man Utd Jersey.~. .~.Bball shorts (black).~. .~. .~.Spending my birthday with ES peepx.~. .~.RP improved in IVP.~. .~.I play as a good Center.~. .~.Able to control the game.~. .~.Join RP bball.~. .~.Commited in wushu, netball and bball.~. .~.DO well in my studies.~. .~.Move on to my future.~. .~.Dont stay in my past.~. .~.Get a B for my Eng O's this year.~. .~.ES netball team will perform.~. .~.People who I care live happily.~. .~.Learn as many sports as possible.~. .~.Study in Uni.~. .~.Weight become 45kg.~. .~.More confident in myself.~. ++People I wont forget++ .+.Buddy - Jesline aka Panda.+. .+.Buddy - Sihua aka Da ge.+. .+.Buddy - Hui Ching aka Ah Neox.+. .+.Buddy - Rosling aka Brother Xiaowong.+. .+.Buddy - Kelly aka Auntie.+. .+.Buddy - Cindy aka Blur Queen.+. +.+Tudi - Huiwen aka lamer no.1+.+ +.+Tudi - Adeline aka lamer 2+.+ +.+Tudi - Jinshu aka Idiot+.+ +.+Tudi - Siriporn aka ah bui+.+ +.+Tudi - Suwei+.+ =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Cheryl aka Sotong no. 1=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Hui Ying aka Sotong no.2=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Perrine aka Sotong no.3=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Jane aka Sotong no. 4=.= =.=CHIJ² Sotong Pai - Jolene aka Sotong no.5=.= (",)Mummy (Ms Lye) (",)Shifu aka Daddy (Mr Teo) (",)Shifu aka Dua Hai(Mr Lai) (",)Hubby (Mr Leong) (",)Ben Hai (Mr Tay) 
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